In what should be noted under the ”moving on from the end of mine marriage” chapter of my time on this planet (and allegedly the point of this blog), three things have occurred which convince me that I may be doing just that:
1. Whilst discussing food preparation with Scarydancer at the dinner table the other day, I mentioned the way my ex cooked a certain item. Lilsister helpfully pointed out that this is the first time she has heard me refer to Exhimself as my ”ex”. The actual name never even sprung to mind.
2. This morning, I followed an extremely handsome man around the supermarket. Not something I normally do, handsome or not, and especially not in supermarkets, as they are full of food, and I like to look at food longingly whilst browsing. It was also prior to beginning my working day, so for me to be even up and about, let alone stalking a complete stranger, was a miracle in itself. Anyway, I saw him whilst I was browsing (but not planning on eating) the cake section (a girl needs something to cheer her up on a Monday morning) and once I had finished smelling the almond croissants, I followed him down to bread, cleaning products, gardening equipment and eventually to the till, where he failed to even look up at me, even though I cleared my throat really loudly, and really manfully. Sigh. I tried to follow him outside but the bloke on the till INSISTED I pay for my goods (half healthy multi grain rolls if you MUST know).
3. A very good friend is dying of cancer. Younger than me by a couple of years, he has less than 12 months with us living souls left. After my immediate thoughts of why him, anger, shock, memories of him performing ”Don’t Cry For Me Argentina” in full drag in a club in Sydney one sweaty Friday night, thoughts of friends that I am grateful for came to mind, and encouraged me to send more texts and thoughts than I normally do. Some responded, some not. But not until a few days later did I think of Exhimself, and even then, only because his hometown is near my ill friend. If he had any importance would he not have been the first face that came to mind?
Could it be?
To sing Whitesnake??????????????????